A woman in a child’s body

This morning I had a job interview (surprise!) and the woman who interviewed me asked me for my birth date and when she found out I was only twenty she said; “Wait, what! Are you only twenty? I can see that you’re young but you seem like you’re almost thirty!” 

I answered; “I get that a lot, but in my mind I was born a thirty year old and every year when I grow older I feel like I become more and more like myself”. 

That what it’s been like my whole life. I know it might seem like I’m trying to brag about how mature I am, but really this has been an issue throughout my whole life, and it’s only now it has started to benefit me in life.

As a kid I was very awkward, and found it very difficult when my friends wanted to play. Playing seemed silly to me, and I didn’t know how I was supposed to act.

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When I was in middle school I spent more recess time indoors with the teachers than outside with the other children. I didn’t know how to communicate with other children and felt more comfortable around other adults.

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In high school I was left out for a long time because I couldn’t relate to other teens. I was uncomfortable with the jargon and didn’t know how to be fun and relaxed.

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My whole life has been a struggle to “act young” and trying to imitate the people in my age to try to fit in. That’s why growing older is the best thing I know. Today I have a lovely boyfriend and amazing friends, who all love me for the little adult in me. Who think I’m funny when I tell them I’ve been drinking coffee since the age of thirteen and has appreciated a good red wine since the age of eighteen. Who accepts that I fall asleep at 9 pm during weekends and watch documentaries for fun.

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Time. Time really does fix everything. 

7 comments

  1. ravenwing72 · October 5, 2015

    I’ve been told my whole life that I’m an “old soul”. I’ve always felt older inside than I really am, and I hanker after bygone, gentler time periods.x

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  2. Emily Harrison · October 5, 2015

    Emma! You’re simply the best! Thanks for sharing and I think a lot of younger folks in today’s world can relate. See, the world is shifting and evolving. Many of the children emerging the world today, are, in my opinion, OLD SOULS. They carry a wisdom that is seemingly beyond the scope of their experience…but that is because we are only taking into account the experiences of this life, here in front of us. If we add up the collective experience of these old souls, we see they have traveled time and space gaining this knowledge and are now incarnating on Earth, to plant it here.

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  3. The Happy Healthy Kiwi · October 7, 2015

    The term Old Soul certainly rings true for you ☺

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  4. janaknmistry · October 11, 2015

    glad to read the beautiful post. I would just say Be YOU.No Matter what. Keep Smiling. 🙂

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  5. Isabelle · October 13, 2015

    This is such a great post, when reading the first line I thought that I’m quite similar as I don’t like doing childish things, but reading the rest of it made me really understand that you much more mature but really amazing! And I love the old photos!

    Anyway, I’ve nominated you for the Liebster award because when I first read one of your posts, I couldn’t stop reading the others and I love your blog!
    https://mysmallcornerisabelle.wordpress.com/2015/10/13/liebster-award/
    Isabelle x

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    • Emma · October 15, 2015

      Thank you for your kind words!!! That made me smile so much, and really brightened my morning 🙂 Thank you ❤

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  6. Lusuna · October 22, 2015

    Hi, I’ve nominated you for the One Lovely Blog award. You write very eloquently, and I always look forward to your blog posts 🙂

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